So.. today I told my Dad how I wasn't happy going to school at the moment. I told him I wanted to stop for awhile and help them financially and go back next year. At first he didn't take it well for the first few moments, then he settled down and we spoke in a generous manner. I admit I was heart broken to tell them I didn't want to graduate this year.. for the second time. But I wanted to do what made me happy, and being in school right now isn't doing it. Don't get me wrong.. I do want to go to university.. it just I don't think it the right time for me to start going. There's so many financial problems, and for a girl who hasn't gone to uni yet.. I'm in alot of debt.. more than my boyfriend, sadly to say. I'm so confused with what I want to do for university so I guess this is also giving me the time to think over what I want to do with my life. I just have to tell my mother about whats going on and hopefully, I pray she'll understand even if it'll break her heart to.
I mostly tell everything to my dad first rather than my mom. My dad is sorta easy to talk to but when he get really angry, it can get kinda scary. My mom, my oh my, one word and all hell breaks loose.. then after she's done. But there's a thing with my mom that my dad doesn't do.. is tease me, or bully me. That's why I'm more reluctant to tell my mom, because I know she'll throw every colour of insult at me which will make matters worse and make me feel more like sh*t.
Anyways, I'm going to ask if I can work early today so I don't have to see my mom when she comes home.. Give her some time to let out her steam.
